Lost, confused and trying to make a stand

[brobafet]

It said to smile at fear then step on it.

And so I have done. I have plastered a smile on my face and kept on stepping through the pain and heartache. If you stick that smile on your face for long enough it will sink into your brain. Really, it will. I got several other books like that one, and each night before I went to bed I would read a chapter, then ponder it when I went to sleep. It helped me a lot. I am at a funny point where I should go back to that practice.

Hang in there and know things will get better.

Wendy,

You rock, thanks for the encouraging words. A smile is appearing more often on my face than a few weeks ago. I think I will starting doing the same, reading a chapter a night. I have a gigantic book called Helping Your Kids Cope with Divorce I must get through it and re-read it.

I found a book and based on its cover I picked it up its called You are a Bada$s, I read a quote on the back, it had something to do with Star Wars (huge nerd for Star Wars) it was funny and made me laugh out loud in the book store. So I thought if the back cover could do that at a time where humor, smiles, and just feeling good about myself was rare, i should by it.

I cant really read the relationship type books, besides I know where I went wrong, and I know where she went wrong. I don't need to be reminded and seek to repair my relationship with xW I know that it is dead.

I have my relationship with God, my family and my friends who listen to me, and help me move along and not feel sorry for myself.

I really hope that things are going good for you Wendy. Step on that fear!