let's start at the end, shall we?

[KindaHappy1]

I feel sad today, maybe I am losing hope and maybe that is a good thing. I'm beginning to see a bit more clearly and I asked myself in my journal today "What are you choosing to not see?" and I realized how I'm holding on to nothing but memories and hope. I think what I have been seeing as signs of love from her is just her guilt leaking through her facade.

The nicest thing she can say to me is "I don't hate you"
gee, thanks