KG I have missed you. Thank you for coming by. :-)

Its weird, its just so...'blah'. The way my H treats me is just so bland, so neutral. There is no emotion except for bursts of anger or forced indifference. Never any kindness, or tenderness or friendliness. I see him treat neighbors and strangers more nicely. And I dont get it. He tells people he 'misses' them after not seeing them for a few weeks, he stopped doing polite things that have nothing to do with me, but apparently they do. Like things I thought were just a part of him, that are a part of him.....opening the door for me, carrying a heavy bag. These are things he would do for any woman...not just me. I see him still do it for others. I just dont get it. If its such a part of him, how does he keep it suppressed so well? To me it would be trying to hold back laughter. I would eventually burst.

KG you are not alone...and definitely not crazy. We have been put in a crazy situation and are relearning that up is not always above us and down is sometimes sideways. I think it will be a daily challenge for me for the rest of my life...

sending you so much love and many many hugs (((((((((((( ))))))))))))

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home