Brobafet: This is very hard work. I am feeling better, but it takes a long time. I can say the one turning point for me was finding a book in a stack of books my DIL was reading. I saw the title (Smile at Fear: Awakening the True Heart of Bravery By Chögyam Trungpa) and was intrigued. I picked up the book and flipped it open. It opened on the passage speaking about the title. It said to smile at fear then step on it.
And so I have done. I have plastered a smile on my face and kept on stepping through the pain and heartache. If you stick that smile on your face for long enough it will sink into your brain. Really, it will. I got several other books like that one, and each night before I went to bed I would read a chapter, then ponder it when I went to sleep. It helped me a lot. I am at a funny point where I should go back to that practice.
Hang in there and know things will get better.
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
