To little Too late

[MrBond]

"It is like she is holding on to me to see what I have become."

Mindreading. It could very well be that she wants to see if you've REALLY changed, but don't base your changes on that.

"Anyway I guess I am going on with my life together as a family, waiting to see what she is going to do, hoping that I don't fall out of love with her enough to the point where I get involved with another woman."

Really? You're that weak? From what I recall, this is what you wrote when you first came here...

"She wanted me to show her. I have made all of the classic mistakes, not trying hard enough to be romantic, becoming distant. I had become someone completely different than the man she once loved and loved her back."

So you're saying that if she doesn't step up, you're going to find someone else. This after you said that you were the one who had changed and took her for granted. I don't think you realize that this is just more of the same behavior from you. From the outside it doesn't look like you had changed at all. Just IMHO.