pay no mind to the demons; they fill you w/fear

[Whiterose]

Thank you Snoddely

I didn't think I had either but maybe I didn't give it to get back at him.....I could see how'd that was something I did subconsciously.

Can you clarify what you mean by "move onto something else before its all said and done"? Do you mean something to be angry at me about? I'm continuing to go forward, as much as I can each day. Just finished my application to foster children and will bring it in to the ministry tomorrow.

SA you're right it sounds far too quick, especially, considering the amount of time we've been together. It just seems so much easier and this level if anger and disdain towards me, and to some extent the boys, is overwhelming which isn't healthy......but, what if he does snap out of it and tries to work on coming home and I've done things that don't make that possible? It's all so stressful. You're making huge choices that affect everyone and I don't have all the info......goes against my "planner" instincts.

I will start choosing my words carefully going forward for sure