Awww thanks Ruby. It was a bit easier today. I find that I am really not so 'sad' anymore as more just living in the day. I do enjoy when H is around because it just seems like we are complete as a family.

It is not what he wants now though, but it does not stop me anymore from living or enjoying my life and my kids and learning new things about myself and improving the things I dont like.

I know exactly what you mean your incident with your D. I was very much the same way and something I began working on early on in my journey. still work on it too!

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home