The tide is turning

[forlovessake]

Remind me, please that it's normal for the WAS to be hot and cold? After D's procedure on Thurs H continued to be kind, but a bit more distant..perhaps because we had spent quite a bit of time together Weds and Thurs? I went away over the weekend and he had D. We exchanged a few pleasant texts. Sunday when I got home I asked if he would ever consider moving back in, as things had been going well for a few weeks. I knew the answer would be no, but felt God prompted me to ask. Of course he met with a no way. Said two weeks is not long enough to know I've changed, and that in the back of his head he wonders if I'm just acting like this so I can say I did everything possible to save my marriage at the end. Also said he feels bad for me, but isn't sure what he wants and is all messed up in the head. Then said he's wondered if there's anything he should apologize for over the past eight years and can't think of anything. It took everything in me to let that comment go. I cried, which I shouldn't have, and he hugged me before he left, said it would all be okay, then whispered he loves me. That man confuses me to no end. Today he seems more distant and said he only wants to talk about positive things..no more about OW (EA), his choices, what he wants, etc. At the very least I'm happy he now says he doesn't know what he wants vs he's 100% done.