We celebrated my Mom's birthday last night. This very well could be her last one. She's really struggling with ongoing infections and a broken arm that isn't healing. She's really feeling hopeless. She's not ready to die. It's been a very emotional time.
I'm missing my friend and her family. The three of us are lonely at dinner time. We really enjoyed the big family dinners. When we said grace tonight we asked God to bring others to our table. We'll extend some invitations this week.
Xh has been really difficult the last few days. I haven't heard anymore from him since I shut him down. I'm really at a loss as to how to deal with him. I've been very kind, understanding and compassionate. I've held my ground by stating my boundaries and asking for what I want and need. There just seems to be no end to the blame and hostility. I don't understand how anyone can maintain an attack against another, especially when there has been little to no fuel to keep it going.
I've been mentally done with this whole situation for awhile now. I'm struggling to find anymore compassion or forgiveness for this person that continues to make my life so difficult. The sermon at church this morning was about internal brokenness, forgiveness and healing. The boys and I really needed to hear that. We'll reflect on the message as we go through the week.
