Don't think I haven't explored my issues on dating. Jealous is not it because I never in a million years thought he would be. Apparently I am wrong. Well ish.
My take is this. Am I ready ready?? Nope. Do I have to trust? Yep. As you all recall, they are named social experiments for a reason. I fully expected to go on a few dates have fun practice my feminine wiles and generally be casual. This guy is interesting as hell. But whether I can truly go in this direction will remain to be seen. But I won't know unless I try.
It's time for me to do this. I have to let go of the hold on H because this is becoming a loop rather than growth. I want him to explore his path without my interference or worries that I am lonely etc.
I have a kind of unshakeable feeling that this is the right thing. H is my person. I love him and am letting it go
