SE2 is potentially potential. I think it's cuz, turtle, you are still questioning stuff. And they are not so much 2x4's as here are all the things to think about and do you want to still proceed??
Take the I woulds and I wouldn't s and weigh them. Then follow what your head says. I know my heart would not be the voice of reason right now but my head says I need this, even though I am fearful. I know H needs this too. Just didn't expect actually to click.
I have to ask if your dating to make your husband jealous or for him to click? I'm sure your not as that would be cruel to the SE2...
Fearful... ppffttt you ran a 1/2 with a jacked up toe, that takes courage, dating should be a piece of cake.
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.