Surviving Separation

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On to the next challenge! As I head into my last few days of being pregnant I'm wondering how the next few weeks will pan out. Some of my PMA and sanity saving life savers are being taken away while a whole new level of challenges lay ahead.

I'm no longer reporting to my office for work until after maternity leave.. After only a few days at home I can already see that finding ways to connect w/ other people (adults) is going to be priority #1 when baby and I are ready to leave the house. Maternity leave is lonely when u are on your own! Who knew I'd miss going in to work so quickly

Ironically, for at least the first two weeks after baby arrives my H and his mom will be spending a significant amount of time here at the house. I'll go from complete and utter independence/ alone time to having two very awkward people here 24/7 back to being alone again for the most part. Where is the chapter in DBing for how to handle that I wonder... I better start making a long list of small talk topics now, ha ha!

Also, in addition to losing the companionship of co workers to keep my sanity, I'm also losing the ability to get meaningful exercise. I'm hoping to be out walking soon after the baby, but right now my daily walks are the shot of energy, positivity I need. Me being up all night w/ a baby plus not being able to exercise for a little while could be a recipe for a moody disaster.

I feel like the next two weeks or so are like the finals for a big college course on DBing. Can I remain detached and act as if I'm fine on my own when I'm seeing my H daily? Can I remain somewhat cool and collected when I'm running on no sleep being up w/ baby? Can I avoid R talk w/ him and definitely avoid it with his mom? Oh boy, it will be interesting.

Throw in there the awkwardness of all of my family and friends stopping by to visit in the hospital. They've always been very courteous to my H through our issues but I know his level of discomfort will be off the chart. I will do what I can not to take it personally if he can't deal w/ it and leaves when people visit, but I'm just interested to see how it all plays out.

Wish me luck!