I'm nearly 5 months down the line, it'll be 5 months on the 2nd September and I'm nowhere near a R at the mo. My H has recently gone even more into a fog and the fog doesn't seem to be lifting. The point I'm trying to make is that after 4 months you should have adjusted to this new life by now. Maybe I'm being too hard on you as I am a strong person who gets out there regardless. Plus I have a son that I have to keep strong for. He wouldn't want me wallowing about in self pity, he wants to go out. In a way he's the one that keeps me motivated. Our sitches are poles apart, but our spouses both upped and left. I'm not going to give you a 2x4 for the email, that's been and gone and you should stop dwelling on it. You've learnt by your mistake and you won't be doing that again in a hurry! It may have put you back a bit with her contacting you, but try not to think about this. I know she's the love of your life, but you really do need to stop repeating yourself on here and dwelling on things. Most importantly, you need to start doing things, new interests, hobbies,etc. You don't have to be back from town now at a certain time, you can eat what you want to, you can cook when you want, you can get up when you want. You are your own person now and you need to have a PMA through all this or it'll just drag you down all the time and your health will suffer. I hope you've made an appt with the doctor this week about getting some help for your depression. Even just talking to your doctor will help He may even suggest some support groups for you to go to.
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
He may even suggest some support groups for you to go to.