WR, It's very early for you to try to make a decision about your situation. We have a phrase here that we use a lot "when in doubt, do nothing". You will know when you've had enough. For now, sit quietly and allow the answers to fall into your lap.
The only one that truly knows what the outcome will be in your situation is God. None of us can predict whether or not he'll return. Try not to "assume" anything when it comes to him. Assuming tends to lead to mind reading which leads to anxiety. Live your life to the fullest, "as if" he may not return. That's all you can do for now.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
