There is no way the baby could be mine if she was pregnant. We haven't had sex in over 6 months. I wish we could just talk about what's going on and be honest with each other but I know that know is not the time. Today we had breakfast when she got home and had a nice conversation. She was telling me that she went to her OB-GYN on friend and that the doctor told her that she is low risk (she had a high risk pregnancy when we had our daughter so she has telling me she was afraid to have another one but feels better now). She then told me that maybe in a couple of years we can have another one. I did find some prenatal vitamin samples underneath the car seat this morning by mistake but I'm not too sure if she is or isn't pregnant.
I need to start acting the way I was before I knew of the affair (do some serious DBing while following the 3 rules). I need to flood my wife with love without using words - just actions.
Not sure what mood she was in yesterday as just a couple of days before she was telling OM that she wants to marry him. Sounds like she is still very deep in the fog and doesn't know what she wants at this point. I was ready to confront her and live with the consequences of possibly having the marriage end. Know I am just more confused and lost - so the best course is not to do anything until I can get a clear head.
