Short update on my apartment sitch for those from my other thread that are interested:
I was in hotel 3 days. On day 3, while on his way to White water raft for the first time, H calls, I assume to tell me he’s got the pay check stub I need.
No, he called to ask me to fill out a phone insurance claim b/c he dropped his phone while on a mountain hike the day before.
His phone still calls and text fine, but apparently it’s an emergency........ The phone insurance is in my name so I need to fill it out and send in my ID.
While talking about his phone, I ask if he got a check stub. He says “o yeah, I’ll do that now”, he forgot?!?
He sends over a document that shows his pay but has no name or job name on it! I’m annoyed, but decide to take matters into my own hands and photoshop the required info on to the document he sent (judge me lol) and submit it.
Mean while, H continuously calls me about my filling out the document he needs for his phone. I’m annoyed again, but I show him grace and I go ahead and do it give him the opposite of his own behavior.
The apartment accepted my fixed document, but now wants to email H the lease and he must sign first before I’m allowed to show up. H’s phone issue is over now, so he’s really not in the mood to help me anymore, so he tells me I can sign on his behalf.
So I ask, “are you going to give me the password to your email?”. I thought he’d say no, but he actually gave it to me. I snooped of course while in there, didn’t think I’d see anything b/c he’s always been a master deleter, but I did see that he forward an email I sent him to HIS SISTER!!!!
He changed the title of my email to “This is not going to be pretty”.
I’m hurt by the fact he shared my personal thoughts w/ his sister, that particular email wasn’t anything serious (the email was send in April, I asked him to keep is heart open to me, allow me to visit "wonderland" and be open to a vacation when he came to visit me in July), but if he shared that I’m sure he shared the more personal ones. I would never embarrass him in that way.
But it made me happy to know that he thought my behavior was “not going to be pretty” when he finally BD'd, and b/c of DB and other books, I have been the exact opposite (since April when he initially said maybe we shouldn’t be together, in July when he officially BD, all the way until now) I have shown him nothing but pretty.
This gave me motivation to continue to show him “pretty”, beautiful, control, humble, and better than ever!
H has his brand new phone in hand w/in 24 hrs of dropping it. All is well in his world.
I was able to move in yesterday. I start work tonight.
One thing that was interesting. After he gave me the password to his email, I text'd him back after I checked it:
Me: They haven't sent it over yet. Hope they send it by tomorrow; the dog is over this hotel/car living. You shouldn't hear anything else from me though Thanks again...for everything.
H: No problem. Thank you! You can contact me anytime.
I wonder what he means by this contact me anytime? Any opinions on this? Does he maybe like feeling needed? Does he possibly want to talk to me more? Or am I just reading way too much into it?
I haven't contacted him since then. My plans were to go dark for the next 2 weeks and see what happens. But then advice from a co-work of mine, who is an older, pretty wise man, rings in my head. He knows a little about my sitch so he asked me if I had spoke to H recently, I told him a little, he said "good, I hope you two keep talking".
So I'm on the fence on if I should go dark or some how figure out a way to contact him every once in a while, as going dark will probably seem like "more of the same" but I also don't want to seem like I am pursuing. Any ideas on how to walk this line?
me: 30 H:30 tgthr:7 m:4 no kids 5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012 long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012 official BD: July 2013 nothing filed 1/1/14 I dropped the rope