Turtle Goddess she of the hard shell soft

[RosaLinda]

"He and D19 are very similar, they both flee sitches that are difficult or uncomfortable. And H is still "here". If I look at it that way, I have to admit he is actually "trying". His skill set just isn't good. "

This is an excellent insight J. You're right that this is probably why H went to the casino after getting that message about D19 being in jail, and just texted instructions to you about her bail. If this is how he has always been, the fact that he is still with you reveals a lot about his committment to you. 

"Everyone of us has limitations. As I recognize more of both my own and H's I realize it comes down to deciding if, despite those limitations, a future is viable."

Some of us have more limitations than others, and some are harder to deal with than others. If you were happy for over 10 years J, between MLC parts A and B, why would you even consider that your future is not viable? You may decide you no longer want it, but it IS viable. 

You are going through an awfully difficult time right now with very little support or back up, and are holding up great, following thru, making good choices and doing what needs to get done. YOU are one of Portia's Diamond Divas J, i am proud to be able to call you my friend.