Snodderly, I completely agree with you and I wish it was easier for me to just use my head and keep my heart out of it for now.
My xh and I met for dinner the other night. Again he told me he misses me and our friendship. However,this time he went a little further and was able to tell me that he wants to work things out which just got my head spinning. I loved this man for so long and then, in order to go forward without him, I had to remind myself of his faults and convince myself that I deserved better. I believed my xh would eventually come to this realization, I just didn't think it would take this long. I rebuilt my life and i was finally happier. Now I have to decide if I can forgive him IF he can prove himself. It sounds somewhat easy, right?....Just let him prove himself. Well, for me, this all makes me a little crazy because I can't seem to keep my heart out of it until he proves himself. I'm already feeling vulnerable. And then to top it off, my xh confessed to me that he has slept with a couple of other women. I'm not exactly sure how the topic came up but he said I asked and he wanted to be honest. Ugh! I believe it was post our last breakup but it still bothers me.
I told my xh he was going to have to be "all in" and prove himself. He agreed. Now I'm on vacation for 2 weeks. Which is good so I have time to think...or does it give me too much time to get into my head???
