Still at Square One!!!

[DFE]

This is a very strange dynamic. H took boys out boating today. I was so sad I started crying. I was missing one of the their firsts. Their first boat ride. H text me pictures of them on the boat and I text back saying wish I was there with my boys. I feel he has robbed me of spending time with my boys. I am the only one being excluded from their plans and it [censored] because I didn't ask for this.......

We all went out to dinner tonight with friends. H assumed he was invited too and I told him he could come. At the end of the night he put the kids in the car and kissed them goodnight. He came to my side and asked me if I wanted a kiss goodnight as well. I said pucker up give me one. He started laughing. I said who are you scaring? He walked away laughing. I was just joking of course but I would have kissed him if he was serious :0

Is he trying to drive me insane? I'm confused about where we stand. I am in limbo. We go out and have a great time. We joke and are friendly. The kids have a great time as well. Yet he wants to run back to his house.

Mile High....I understand them needing a friend. I want to be that friend. What bothers me is am I being used to ease his pain. To make his transition into his new life easier?

Chasingpavements....I feel like the less people that know the better. The more people that know the more opinions I will hear.