Me 10 months on. Dark and detaching still.

[hotwheelsaust]

Thanks F, for the replies and your quick response. Bit by bit as we learn about ourselves, we also see the faults in other people that we didn't earlier. I see the W's family and friends being very quick to judge anything I ever did, never ones to tell me face to face, but you hear about them eventually. This scenario with the tattoo (if that is the issue) is the same. If they have a problem, not that it should be a problem to them anyway, then they need to speak to me, now. Not days, weeks or months later. And this is the problem I have had with my sitch for these 10 months, they all get together and talk about what I am doing wrong (as I get told at a later date). Guaranteed the complaint is that my sons saw the tattoo. Firstly they are adults now, if they have an issue with it, then they need to speak to me. Secondly, the picture was up for about an hour, if the sons didn't see it, then who told them? Who is in the wrong then?
In all honesty, I really see that the M has had no hope since day one of the BD. I really don't think I could have done anything different or better. I simply feel my W reached a point that she said "no more". Whether the EA is part of it, the family are part of it, or none of the above. It doesn't matter anymore. While I love my W, I don't think I want her back. I don't like who she has become, the way she has treated me, and the way I have been treated by the whole family. I don't think I could enjoy being with this group of people again.