NEW LIFE / NEW ME

[Fartiltre]

I have decided to go LRT now. My next post will be an answer and some questions for Sandi2 and from thereon I am as dark as possible – for me and for the sit!

I haven’t initiated contact to W for three days. We have spoken since she has been in my home moving some of her things. When she did this two days ago I told her to leave her key and she did. Yesterday D4 got stung by a bee or wasp on the tongue and this needed to be addressed since W got the info. She called me up and we talked very briefly. At that time I told her that her stuff has to be gone in two weeks. I have invited around 20 guys to a boys-day at my home in three weeks and I want her out. She agreed to this.

XW1 has been very communication and yesterday she went completely ballistic. She invited me to join her and S10 on a short skiing trip right after new-year. I believe she is just taking advantage of the situation and that she only wants S10 to have us both around him now that this is possible – but still it is a peculiar situation. I said thank you and that I would consider this. We also – on S10s initiative – are going together to a movie on Monday.

ADVICE???
WILL THIS WORK AGAINST MY GOAL OF R?

My GAL is going great IMHO. Never done that much. I am meeting new people and enjoying myself doing this. Fixing my home and GAL are major for me these weeks. My business situation and medical issues are unchanged and since I can’t do that much until the end of august I just leave them be for now.

I feel good in general but W is constantly on my mind! I do not work against this since I believe only time will change this and at the same time I don’t feel sad or sorry – it is more the feeling of wondering about why I let this happen that hits me. I had a session at my shrink yesterday and addressed two issues. Why I let this happen and how to get the changes in me to sink all the way in. It was a good session but it should have lasted a day and not just an hour. I am getting closer to the answers but still have a lifetime of work that I would like to do on me and my living. This keeps me going and since I now realize my own changes I feel confident, busy and good.