I have been meaning to post all day about how recovered and detached I am.

How I sat through a meeting with a mediator and STBX today and was calm and all around awesome.

But just now on the walk home...

My girls and I were talking about next weekend when they are going on a trip with Daddy to the beach and they are going to see their grandparents and their cousins and D4 says Jess (OW) is coming too.

I was totally calm but saying the dumbest things.

Do you like Jess? Why do you like her? Mommy doesn't like her.

D3 starts crying why dont you like Jess she is nice to me.

I went on about how Jess is not a person, how she is the reason that daddy doesnt live with us anymore.

I said several times I dont like her she is mean.

I snapped out of it and then said I didnt mean it and I changed the conversation.

What am I supposed to say when they mention this hooker- b!tch? I Hate her

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M 39
H 35
D5,D4
M 4
T 9
ILYBNILWY 5/18/11
Left 7/11/11
Divorced 12/1/13