I assuming you didnt tell your T about the booze and P
(Please do not take me the wrong way- I am in no way assuming you are a all out HD user- you just need to ID why you use the crutch........even occasionally)
Ever think about finding a new T to work on the esteem issues?
So what is your weight goal? where are you now and where will you be in a mth?
How about a set goal for exercise 3x a week, every other day?
Self help is good BUT enjoyable books are important too....Lord knows youll be doing enough self help on your journey
ME 38 W 37 T18 M5 D3 BD 1/7/13 PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing 2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13 W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13 First mediation appt 12/19/13