I'm going to be completely honest here and get this off my chest....I've been doing alot of thinking the past few days about my sitch. The number one first and foremost thing thats really laying heavy on me is how my W left without a word and absolutely no clues of what she was about to do. This I think is what I have not been able to get a handle on. I believe this is the one thing I have not been able to get past. I understand everything that all have been telling me and I have read DR 2 times. The idea though, that she was able to do this without a hint of what was going to come down lays heavy on me. The fact she has gone almost 4 months without speaking to me is also unreal in my mind. My point is, how can a supposed love one behave so normal and within a matter of a few hours turn into someone like you have never known. 2 x 4 me be my guest, I'm sure I deserve it but, normal folks just dont walk out on a 12 year relationship like she did and then just shut you out completely. Or do they?
