Confluences, I have two kids from a previous relationship.
An update on today's lunch. I was pleased that my H went ahead and texted a time and place to meet first thing today so that I didn't have to wonder whether we were still on.
Lunch went well and lasted nearly 2 hours. We kept things light and I noticed he seemed to linger a bit bringing up new topics to chat about whenever there was a lull long after we had finished eating. He was in no hurry to end lunch that's for sure.
No R talk, just felt like catching up with an old friend. I feel much better going into the delivery room now that I've seen him in person for the first time in 3 months.
Lots of smiles during our conversation and he was quite talkative (he tends to be introverted). I dont feel like this meetup got my hopes up, things still feel pretty much the same, but I was really pleased at how at ease he was around me.
When I look back at notes/journals from a few months ago I had set myself a goal of not making things worse so that at the very least we'd be comfortable around one another come my due date. I'm proud of myself for reaching that goal. Whatever happens I think I did the best job possible since we separated in May and this continues to be in Gods hands to decide what comes next.
The only drawback to today's meetup was hearing about his plans to paint the babies room at his house this weekend and his plans to pick up a crib. It's like I know he has his own place and isn't coming back but hearing about plans like that give this sitch a feeling of permanence that I'm not used to facing/accepting.
BD: Aug 2012 Separated since May 2013 S born Aug 2013 Aug 2013 H agrees to consider 'baby steps toward working things out' H is/was actively seeing someone?
