Hanging out, down the street

[JustStunned]

I’ve been off participating in a continuous improvement meeting at work. This qualifies as one of those “Be careful what you ask for” things as they are mentally exhausting. It was not my first and I did not ask to participate. This does not matter, one rolls up their sleeves and participates, participates, participates.

It would have been better for me to have this meeting last week. Aug 7th was our anniversary and the day did not pass without notice. I don’t know why this year was more difficult than last. It just was. I could have used the distraction.

Last week DIL asked if X could come to the house. This was a continuation off her discussion/argument with D about the same subject. It shifted from family holidays (Thanksgiving and Christmas) to GD birthday and babysitting hand offs. It does seem draconian to argue against X picking up GD for babysitting and inconvenient for DIL to travel to X’s house. I could see her point and relented I will consider the birthday party some more. I expect to relent on that also. I need to become comfortable with it first. It isn’t right to hinder or prevent GD from interactions with her Grandmother. DIL offered to rent a hall or use a community center for the birthday party. From my POV this seemed to be a lot to ask of her just because I am having an issue with X.

X in that house will take some meditation.

I meet X tomorrow morning to cash the check from the mutual fund company. How that interaction goes will influence my decision. The last time she was deeply in replay and so unnaturally happy she seemed high. Perhaps she will perceive reality differently this time. IDK. Tomorrow isn’t here yet.

I’m not worried about it. It will be what it will.