Mr. Bond it's funny you said it's not about who is right, because the other day H wrote me a text referring to a past conversation stating "we'll wait and see who is right." I wrote back saying it's not about who's right, but about how we feel. He seemed in a better mood after I wrote that. I guess he does need some validation that I've neglected to give.
In terms of myself, I haven't been losing weight on a set goal, so I joined Myfitnesspal website to see if it's any good. I usually do good on diets when I keep a journal of calories. It's not that I am tempted to eat food, it's simply the fact I lose track of calories. If I can consistently keep track, I think I'll have a better time getting more weight lost in a better time frame. I'm rather short (5'4) so being even over 50 pounds overweight is obese. I want to get out of the obese range before my 29th birthday. I want to feel good and confident when I go out. I will be home in 3 days. I'm getting an array of emotions. I'm going from not caring, to wanting to text H. I've resisted thus far, but man it's hard! I'm glad I have resisted and am slowly learning to focus more on myself. I realize the importance of doing that, but it's hard to take a 180. Patience, Patience, patience! I guess my next goal is to learn patience. Living with H is stressful because I feel like I'm hated. I don't like it at all.
I want to feel good and confident when I go out. 