Hello All,

Here is this weeks updates and journaling:

W can be very nice at times and then she just does a complete 180 when she doesn't get her way. She becomes mean spirited and hurtful towards me. I am getting better with letting the hurtful things she says to me roll off my back. I don't react much to her when she is being this way and, as of late, her antics are not bothering me as much at the moment.

She keeps accusing me of not wanting to let my son do his sporting activities. I would love nothing better than to play all the sports he wants. When my W asks me about paying for the sporting activities, I tell her that we should be saving as much as possible right now. My 45% pay cut has not arrived yet but it will soon.

When that happens, we will not be making enough to pay for all our bills etc. so we will have to rely on our savings, which are minimal. The majority of our savings are going to the attorneys with little left to pay for utilities, food, insurance, taxes etc.

She doesn't seem to get the fact that we will not be able to afford much of anything when the pay cut occurs. I am saving all the money I can right now to pay for the divorce, taxes, food and our other bills. She is not happy about his but, I feel that a roof over my childrens heads and food on the table are more important than sports at the moment.

I have also taken over paying for my own credit card. She has been paying the bills up until now but has recently stopped paying off the credit card balance at the end of the month as we always have. She has shorted it 3 months in a row, $400.00 each month. She did make up payments for the first 2 months, but not last months bill. If I don't take over the payment of my credit card, I feel that she will stop paying it all together and I will start paying penalties on it.

I will post more later.

BKS


M46 W45 T12 M10 S9 D4
BD 2/13
Divorced 5/14