I am trying so hard to get past this. Tha last couple of days have really been hard. Why? I swear I dont understand why I cant just let her go. I dont understand...She is already gone, I have no choice in that and I know I can only do for me at this point. Still, though it hurts. I need something that will erase these sad cycles. I want nothing more than to be me again. I am too old for this crap...Is there not a way to just shut your heart off...........
