Harder and Harder......Part three

[Positivespin]

I had a pity party with myself tonight.........I was the host, the guest and the man of the hour. I was thinking about sending out invites to all of you but the pen was gliding along on my journal as the tears were flowing- it was actually a great pity party

I got a lot accomplished.

I have a very bad memory. In sucky times, like this, it's an asset. Other times, like memories with d3 it's an obvious weakness. This is why I kept a journal. I figured years from now- when I'm out of this and looking back- it would bring back some memories.

Well volume 2 of my journal begins June 5. I was 202 lbs and broken because my little girl was spending her first night away from me.

Revisiting those past pages also taught me something............My wife is a _______

You don't see it in the moment. From one day to the next it happens so slightly,like a drippy faucet, then one day you realize you have a bathtub full of poop.

I was looking back - just 2 months ago, when she was still at the house and the things she did, those lies, the muffled phone calls downstairs............why the hell did I put up with it?????

Tonight was a pity party- a f'ing AWESOME pity party

True growth happened tonight my friends