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[Not Quitting]

Nerves coming into play a little bit today. H and I have a meeting tomorrow morning to sign off on the debt settlement plan. The only contact all week has been a couple of short text messages to confirm the appointment. Haven't seen him at all since Friday when he proved to be lying to both S13 and I (quick refresher, he said away on boys' weekend but turned up in the same place that S13 and I gone for the weekend and was with OW).

As he doesn't drive and the meeting is for both of us, I have agreed to pick him up and drive him to/from the meeting. Can't say that I'm really looking forward to an hour (at least, depending on traffic) stuck in the car with him. I may have to bite my tongue to keep from verbally blasting him over last weekend - I did it by text on the day.

I still want things to work out between us, and I was actually prepared for him to spiral given that his mom has been in hospital recently for tests and there still isn't any diagnosis. I just wasn't expecting him to blatantly lie about his weekend plans and to risk S13 finding out about OW when H has been insistent that he doesn't know, at least not yet. Not sure how I'm going to react tomorrow.

I've been pretty good all week. It hasn't been an issue for me that there's been minimal contact, but I'm not sure how I'll be when face to face with him. I almost wish I'd gone ahead with the meeting last week by myself and leave him to get himself there on his own time instead of postponing it until we were both available.