Dropping the Rope

[littleGTO]

Had a real roller coaster day today. Last night went to bed sad - crying, a lot of self-pity. Woke up the same way.

Went to S11's gymnastics where H & I have been sitting side-by-side all week talking. Today he commented how quiet I was. I said yes, I was. He sensed I wasn't in a good place.

Before we left it was brought to our attention that S11 might be put on a team this fall. I said that his current gymnastics place (not this summer gymnastics camp) was more convenient and that we are all about that.

H disagreed and said no, we are'nt...blah, blah, blah...his tone shut me down and I told him as much. I said that I needed to leave in the middle of him "talking" to me (prob not dbing on my part, but..) and he followed me to my car.

I turned and told him that it wasn't what he was saying that I didn't want to hear, it was the way he was talking to me that I couldn't hear him.

He apologized and I conceded that I wasn't in a great place today.

After leaving he texted me to apologize again and ask me about why I was down. I thanked him for his concern, but didn't go into any details about my mood.

Later today I called H (I almost never do unless it's about the boys) b/c I had just talked to his sister--she came home from the hospital today after an infection from her double mast. and she was really down...so it upset me & I thought he would understand me. He did & we talked for a little bit- I felt better after conversation.

Baby steps to us communicating in a positive way.