Falling Down 100....Getting Up 101

[RosaLinda]

"The darkness is like a shadow that follows me everywhere. At times, I can be content and even happy and upbeat but there is always that twinge of melancholy and that feeling of being utterly alone.

One day, I suppose those holes will fill and hurts will mend. I am working on it. Otherwise, life is keeping me busy."

Oh Portia, it broke my heart to read this. And you know what, I feel just the same, even though my H is living here with his philandering self in my face every day. I so miss him, the old him, and like you, feel utterly alone. I guess it would have been easier for you if SO hadn't contacted you. I got so excited about it. Well, no matter what, it shows you are on his mind. And if he is anything like my H, he is spinning so fast and he is lying to himself about how wonderful things are, but is actually horribly depressed.

I know you will be okay no matter what, you are such a strong woman, and have grown so much. I truly believe that your SO is going to come crawling back someday, but also think that you won't want him any more if he waits too much longer. I always so appreciate your good advice and love. Maybe someday soon we'll be discussing our strategy for dating!

"Is it strange that the thing I miss the most, the very most, is being hugged?"

Me too, me too