Falling Down 100....Getting Up 101

[BrightFuture]

My dear Portia, what you just posted so resonates with me. It is almost like I wrote it myself. Except I knew that it would take longer than one months to get over this. If I want to believe the notion that it takes one month for every year of M or R to recover from a broken R, then I have about 4 more months to go. I can handle that.

I’m also questioning myself if I’m standing for my M anymore. I’m definitely making huge changes in ME and I hope one day I will have the relationship I want. It is also more than 1 year for me since the BD. I would want to believe that my H is still working on himself, but I’m starting to doubt that. Maybe this life is what he wants. I don’t know of it is better if he would be in the R already. At least yours is living in it already, maybe it will take a bit longer for him to realize that the grass is not greener on the other side. For me H, it is still a fantasy that he is pursuing.

I would give you a big hug right now. I know it is not the same as receiving it from your partner, but still could feel nice. (((((hugs!!!!!)))))