This life is more than just a read through

[RosaLinda]

T^2 "The more I get out into the world and try out this "old+new me" thing I created, the more I am convinced/comforted that this MLC thing really wasn't all about me, that it is the mlc'er. Yes, I contributed a lot to the M issues, but have remedied them. Of course I wonder if this could have been all dealt with in MC without having a crisis, but, that's not how things rolled. I accept that. It was/is reality.

I have regained "myself", built a better self, done the work, the hard work, that this mlc journey provides such an opportunity for...it was a good thing in the end, if a painful thing. I am not what the mlc'er claimed; those things that destroy self-esteem, self-confidence, faith, trust in life when we are initial told and spewed at by the one person we trusted, opened up to, the most in life.

But I know now I am going to be okay no matter what life throws at me, and I have modelled that for my boys, and am teaching them how best I can. "

Hey T, just trying to catch up on some of my friends' sitches but it's so hard to read with this double vision. But it makes me want to burst into song every time I say it! I am so glad to hear you say that you truly really honestly now know that W's MLC wasn't about you! That is a great step forward. All of us know that intellectually, but our traitor hearts keep telling us differently.

You really are a wonderful human being you know, goggles, clipboard and all. You WILL be okay, and your sons will be okay too! With or without W. But I know in my heart that she is one of the ones who will get over this insanity, and that you will someday be naming your threads "happily ever after!"

TDF "All I can say when the wheels fall they fall off. Seems like I can't get out from underneath this negative lense lately. I have the midas touch of death. Seems like when I get over 1 hurdle I trip over 2 more. I keep picking myself up though. I honestly dont know how.

You keep picking yourself up because you are a strong, good man P. That letter from the lawyer must have been a kick in the teeth; I'm glad you are ready to protect yourself too. But it does not necessarily mean the end. Honestly. Please try to think more positive thoughts. Do you have a good friend or pastor or someone to talk to, to pour your heart out to? Do you have a FB alias? It is pretty comforting to me.