I am doing great...and my W and I's R and M are doing good too!
Things are going really well. We have a set back every so often, but it isn't much. We have gone out together a lot, and sometimes with her new friends.
We have grown closer over the last several weeks, but even much more so this weekend and this week. I'll breifly list the things that have gone on...
- As I maybe mentioned in a post or two above, my W was upset about her last week of training (this was last Mon), and I peped her up to making the last week by pampering her all weekend. I called it "pamper princess A weekend". She really enjoy being taken care of and all the attention I gave her.
- Friday we went out to eat togther and went and saw the "Passion of the Christ". It was a powerfull movie and we talked about it the whole ride home. One the way there I was crazymaking a bit as I was grouchy from the late night before (she came home at 3am and had me worrying). She was understanding but didn't like it to go on, so we agreed to let it go and went on to have the great night.
-Sat we hung out most of the day being lazy and talked with a GF that stopped by to visit. We then went out for Pizza to my W's favorite bar. Some of her new friends dropped by and we talked for a while. We then went on a limo ride and they took us to another bar. Bad part here was my W couldn't walk the distance from the limo to the bar. Everyone went on ahead without noticing we didn't come in. We hanged out together and made the best of it. Has some risky fun and talked til they came back about an hour later. The limo took us back to the bar. W and I went in and the rest returned a while later. They never said goodbye or hi to us. My W then got upset because of them not talking with her and they were just drinking and having fun just 10 feet away. I was pissed about it, but didn't say anything. After a bit my W and I decided to leave and only one of them (who we just met that night) said goodbye. We were ticked, and my W was feeling bad because she is having an MS flare up and felt more "diabled" than ever. Her friends caused most of this feeling. She said she is starting to see the real friends she has. We went home had a glass of wine together. We even went to bed and ML.
-Sunday we went to church together to the church I have joined. She loved it and the priest. The homile and service really moved her and brought us closer together on a spiritual level. I introduced her to the priest after the service, and even expressed to him she left a lot of baggage at Gods feet that day. We then went and had a nice brunch. We rented some movies and had a nice dinner together.
- Monday I was sick so not much to say that day, but we did have MC that night which went well. I had to leave for an overnight stay after we had dinner. We were both sad I was leaving. My W said to be sure to call when I got in. Well when I arrived at the hotel I couldn't reach her several times. I went to bed a bit worried. She called me at midnight and appologized. She said she went out with some friends and forgot her cell phone. She said she didn't want to stay out that late, and was regetting it because it made her MS symptoms worse.
-Tues I got home about dinner, and made my W a nice meal. She started and IV steriod treatment for 5 days on Tues. I took care of her all night. I also have taken off work the rest of the week to tend to her.
-Wed. we got up to take her in for her treatment. She let me help her with a lot of things, including bathing her in the shower, and blowdrying and fixing her hair and helped get her dressed. She had a Port for the IV that is kept in making it hard for her to do things. When we got there I sat with the hole time and held her hand, ran my fingers through her hair, rubbed her legs, and comforted her. She napped through about an hour of it (takes about 3 hours).
There have been many many other little and big postive signs that have been going on. - She has said to me that she "loves me more than life itself", and she "never wants to loose me" - She prayed a rosary last night with me, I asked her to say a prayer on each decade while I said the rest. Begining each of her prayers was "God continue help my H and I with our R and M" - She said to me and I over heard her say to a friend and SMIL "Our M is happier now than it ever has been" - My W is much more affectionate with me , even rubbed my head in the car today while siging a love somg right to me!
I guess overall this is AMAZING. I can see in my W's eyes that she is truely committed to making this M work. She is putting a lot of effort in. She still has many things she is working through, but with the MS she will be facing these things always. She is really loving to me and I am feeling more and more loved each day. She does slip up a time or too, but everyone does. She knows when something she has done bothers me or worries me and appologizes and even feels bad afterward at herself. Many times now she is being pulled into sitches with her friends because she is trying to help. I think though this will decrease some over time.
Last thing she said today that really struck me was "I need to not be out so late and not call you. Its not good for both of us and is hurting our R. I shouldn't be doing that since we are starting a new and great M together".
I love my W more than ever. I hope that my sitch can give some of you hope because this good fight we are on can be won!
God Bless You,
Reuben
Cautiously hopeful and keeping the Momentum
