I guess living with an MLCer brings its own kind of challenges, doesn't it? Knowing vs. guessing?
IDK, Nero, if I had the choice (and maybe in the future we will!) I would like to be able to stick my finger in a socket and have my brain synapses rewired so that I would not be still so confused after all this time. How is it after all he has done that I would even consider missing him? Or trying again?
I chuckle about it now, but I used to think that it would only take a month for me to get over this. Slight underestimate, though.
But I am with you, I am not competing. If I am "standing" for anything (and I have to say, I am not at all fond of that label), I am standing up for ME. A year later, I am glad I never made any rash decisions. I like that I want a life outside of the white picket fence - travel and adventure. I thought xSO and I shared that. If he has changed so much that he wants that (or feels he wants that) then so be it.
Thanks for the encouragement and saying that the contact is something. He likely is still working through his issues. But, man, it is sure taking a very long time.
Is it strange that the thing I miss the most, the very most, is being hugged?
