The limbo train has been smooth ride lately. The focus has been shifted to d18's move to college. I will really miss her--she's a very good kid and responsible. I'm sad and the same time happy for her that she's going out there in the world. She's going to be 400miles away from home. We will have a road trip this Friday to drop her off. I'm still trying to get over it that she won't be driving with us on the way back.
And s14, I'm still battling him. He's the hard child lol. He seem to debate/argue with me and his mom 90% of the time...sometimes I can feel my blood boils but I contain myself and still be firm with him. He will listen to me but disrespects his mother. I do remind him not to disrespect her every time he pulls that stunt. Overall, he is not that bad, I think it's his age. He does his work but you'd really need to be on top of him.
S3 just turned s4...we had a small birthday party for him last weekend. I like this stage of his age...he does things that would really amaze me and the W...and we just lol
For the sitch, it's the same...W's loving feelings have not returned. No mention of D lately and I myself putting filing D in the back burner to see how it's gonna be after D18 leaves for college. Last R talk we had, she mentioned that she has not talked to OM, how much do I believe this? Oh about 20%, although I stop snooping so I don't know really if she does or not. All I know is i will divorce her if she does continue with her EA.
Overall, our interactions have been good. I don't focus on saving the M, I mainly focus on me, what I want and what I won't put up with. And so as a consequence the pressure is off and I am generally happy/content about myself.
So back to the limbo train. When will I get off? Who knows maybe on the next stop.
Til next time, Newman
me40; W43 M18; T~20 D18; S13 & S3 bomb 5/9/11 EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM
Separated 4/1/14
"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.
