It's great to see how your W is responding to you! The MC sounds really good. I can see that she is opening up to you and breaking down that wall!
My sister also has MS. She tells me that she always needs something to look forward to, ie vacation, decorating her house, etc.. That is what helps her get through the rough times.
Nik
Nik,
Thanks so much for the reply. I think your sis has a good suggestion, the thing is my W tends to think very short term (She doesn't hardly even plan a day ahead). Maybe sometime we can change that as I tend to be a planner.
Last night was another one of those difficult nights. My W called in the afternoon and said she was going out with people from her training (was her last day). W said she'd be home at nine. I was fine with this and just relaxed at home and talked with my folks.
Well 9 came and went and I went to bed and read a while. I left a txt message saying "Goodnight baby, hope your safe and will be home soon. Luv R". I didn't get to sleep right away, but one of the cats was with me which helped.
She finally got in around 3 am. She was grouchy and upset. She said she met up with a few friend and had to deal with their crazy lives. W didn't want to talk much about it. She was also being very hard on herself for staying out so late and said she wanted to be home much much sooner. She did say she didn't drink (she did smell of a bar and alcohol, but she claims it was just the smell on her and not that she was drinking).
I told her if she wanted to talk I'd listen, and that I wished she wouldn't hurt herself so much. She told me a bit of what went on and was mainly pissed at her GF for using her cell phone to call around for rides and talk with a guy F. My W couldn't find her phone and was mad (she lost one already this year). She also was upset that she had to drive her around and she was really worn out due to her MS. I mainly just listened.
She fell asleep, but I was wide awake at this point. I got up and read the bible for about an hour and finally went back to bed. I was up for maybe 2-2.5 hours in the middle of the night. This really throws me for a loop and makes my days really difficult. She says she understands and was sorry, but then again she doesn't work today and it kinda upsets me.
More of the same this morning as she was beating herself up and pissed about last night. She did snuggle with me this morning as I slept in a bit and missed going to the gym.
Just another one of those nights, they have been less frequent since she was training the last 3 weeks. I just worry about this continuing. I just wish she would bring me out with her so I could help her with these sitchs she gets herself into with her "new" friends.
God Bless You,
Reuben
Cautiously hopeful and keeping the Momentum
