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I tried to initiate small talks but she's not really interested and gives short replies. Gotten to a point that i don't know what to say to her anymore. She never tried to have a conversation with me.

MrBond
You are right, i don't understand. I am my children's father. I know that. I can't stop W from taking my kids out to meet up with OM and i don't even know when they have plans.
Another talk with OM?
Another talk with W?
Exposed OM's intentions to her family? OM is friends with W's sister.
Please indulge me. I'm in a fog too.

I will be clear on my finances with W. Took newman's advice on seeking another L. I suppose i'll do this one too.

I will seriously consider leaving. I know by staying my situation is not going to change much. A cheeseless tunnel so to speak by staying.

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this crazy feeling I'm having. This morning I found that we didn't have much for breakfast so I went out to buy some bread and it didn't matter to me nobody noticed. The same thing happened days earlier. The thing is, I wouldn't be this thoughtful before and would have dig out some thing from the kitchen. I would not have thought about my kids not having something to eat!
I'm amazed. Who would have known? I'm pretty surprised with myself and I didn't do this on purpose. Just felt right doing it.
I've been generally nicer in my responses to my colleagues. Greeting people all around. It's crazy.
I kinda like myself now. I'm not sure if I can keep this up.
What is happening? Is this my consciousness reacting to my state of mind now? I don't feel happy though since BD and suddenly I'm acting out of character. Is my hormones acting up?
I so freaking confused right now.
How do I keep this up if I want to be the better 'me' right now? Do I need to be a little bit depressed all the time?
MrBond, I have read in one thread, you mentioned some techniques that could help to 'change' permanently. Or something to that effect.
Anyone can explain? Have anyone gone through similar changes?

MrBond. Please comment.