Good stuff to think about PS, Val and Turtle. You all give so much. The best thing about these boards is the fact that everyone has an opinion and if you can take it all in and think about things, you can't help but grow immensely.
I thought about Tori's emerg contact too. I wanted to say "Pick me!" I can fly out, drive out ,walk...lol
PS- yes this is at my expense for sure, but as I told H, I am in his corner. He had replied that when he told me about having to be selfish and work on him, that he wasn't asking my permission lol, and it wasn't me or anyone else involved in this decision.
I said I know, because then I wouldn't have the feelings I do, if I were driving the train. I purposely left unsaid the feelings are hurt and loss and sadness. But I have chosen this path and by letting those feelings come, but not letting them weigh, I am happier and more peaceful (Back to Tori's happiness/sadness and happy as she has been in a long time discussion )
H has said he always feels at peace when he is with me. This is something I have to be careful to continue, I think. Especially now. Perhaps he will seek it out, if we are apart for a bit. My hope is he can find it in himself.
