Two years in limbo, it's a fine place

[adinva]

I usually make my comments in dbland so i am more typically called dodependent or controlling lol! It's the lingo. Am ready for a new book so will check out wild thanks! I just read divergent and insurgent and thought they were terrific, so bummed when i found out book three allegient isnt out yet.

S15 has been doing loads and loads of laundrey, cleaned the basement with vacuum broom and duster , not sure what got into him? And cleaned and vacuumed his room. I made sure to compliment how responsible and helpful he was being. His friend was just recently complaining in my kitchen bc his mom never appreciates him, when he did some laundry she said well you should be doing it all the time. Boo. I said 'bummer." But i try to praise what they do thats good.

I realize a lot of what i feel overwhelmed with isnt that different from before. H doesnt ever get home from work till late afternoon so i have always had the afternoons and summer days to figure out around my p/t workday. There is more laundry bc my h did all his and mine before. But theres not a lot else that he carried the load within the house. It was just easier mentally knowing hevwas there i guess. Im chafing but not that much is different other than the feeling of being more responsible, feeling like im working without a net.

When i really consider i stop feeling like i can complain. Ive got a lot to be grateful for. Im more sad for h than for me