I see it and I do recognize it. I could have stayed in a hotel, but not financially feasible.
When he was with MG, I would do anything to connect, including staying here, having coffee, etc etc. Now, I find that desperation gone and I don't know why, so yeah, something has changed inside.
I used to connect way more with H, but am sensing him drawing further away. The staying here is not about drawing him back either, I feel he has to let me go to actually miss me..make sense?
Staying here was a choice I made, for my car, for my school etc. I realize that if he wasn't here and I didn't have the choice, I wouldn't be here lol...but he is
Had my friends been back, I would have stayed there. I am trying to dissect it, but it comes down to just being tired and overbooked, I think.
Val, when you mentioned your accident, it actually hurt me when you said she did nothing. I am so so sorry. Makes me put into perspective my own crap.
