I don't know what to do with the Guy Friend she was rooming with. My W seems to indicate that it may be a good thing and that she wants me too. I will give this some more thought and prayer to see if God will give me direction. Maybe I need to ask my W is she wants me to and if she would feel it is snooping (which I know it would seem that way). Maybe if she wants me to I may suggest her coming along, but then again that might be tramatic.
You are right Patrick the talk with her GF was just too wierd. I got the feeling that she admired what I have been doing and needed to know how I did it. I think she was even seeking so good advice on it that she knew my W could really give because of her being a WAW.
The other wierd thing, is it seems like I am the one withdrawing, not my W. She seems to go on her happy way without a second thought, maybe that will change in a few days.
I completely understand about the trust being earned. I am struggling with that myself. I like you have come to forgiveness, but I can't do anything with the trust. My W is getting a little better at doing things to help me trust her, but I also feel sometimes she is testing me as well.
I fear though that she will continue with her ways that don't build trust in me. Like going out alone, and making new single male friends. I just don't believe someone who respects their M and Spouse does those things. And I know that she would not approve if the tables were turned. Part of me just wants to give her a taste of the crap she gives me. I hope I can fight those urges and she changes some of her ways as well.
God Bless You,
Reuben
Cautiously hopeful and keeping the Momentum
