DB seemingly backfired w/ my H???

[Mimi00]

Thanks MrCAS and Suckerpunch for your responses.

The apartment called to check on my progress, I didn't answer. I called H one more time (even though I said I wouldn't), he didn't answer, I left a message saying that I just called to tell him I'm leaving tomorrow.

I called the apartment back and told them things are taking longer than I thought, the letter won't work, so I am still waiting for my husband to send me the info. She stated she wants the application notarized as well.......sigh.

They probably think I'm making H up in my mind, b/c this is so ridiculous lol. About 15 mins later H called me back asking what things did I need again. I told him the docs will now need to be notarized. He asked if I wanted him to notarize it where he is, I told him if it's not too much of a hassle. He was at work so he asked his co-workers around him where to get it done as and they responded. So he said to send him all of the info and he'll get it done and back to me tomorrow.

So again I wait.

I leave tomorrow at 6:00 am and will get to my destination at noon. No place to stay of my own, I guess I should book a hotel now. Hopefully H follows through this time, because I am taking my dog with me (It would kill me to leave my dog behind, at least I'll have "someone" w/ me if I take him).

I'm tempted to go dark on H. I'm so tired of the way I feel....to the point that I don't care if it shows him "more of the same" (I used to shut down/go silent when hurt)....now I know why I protected my self in that way b/c having your heart broken and being rejected [censored]. So I'm thinking of just letting go..........not much can be done w/ him living out of state, us rarely talking and me not pursuing through calls/texts. So, what more is there really?

I believe I have a little over 100 posts in this thread, so after my move, I hope to start a new thread. Thanks to everyone who has helped me thus far, you've all been such a help. I hope you'll continue to help me preserve my sanity in my new thread as well