Moving from hardest decision. Needed a more positive vibe to continue this journey.
Summary: W seems finished with the angry phase. It's been a few weeks since any angry emails, texts, etc. Stopped trying to provoke responses from me and stopped telling me she's happy, etc.
Limbo: Stopped talking about separating finances, D and OM. I'm not pressing for any info on any of that.
Baby steps: Started asking more about me, volunteering to bring me stuff, and sharing info about her - just a tiny bit, but that was a noticeable change. Seemed to want to spend time here when she was here, instead of being anxious to go. General vibe that she's realized being on her own, or with OM is not living up to expectations.
Where we're at now: Says she needs me as a friend right now, and likes to do stuff with me, but also said "nothing has changed." A lot has actually changed, because just a few weeks ago, I was the cause of all problems. But I understand that she's being very cautious, and am just accepting the situation as it is. No rush.
She's coming over Friday and we're going to go to a movie, and then stopping at Petsmart to get a tower/scratching post for the cat. This was her idea. This will be the longest time we've been together since right after BD when we went to dinner together.
Time is showing itself to be a gift. It seems like I was just starting to get a handle on being alone here, and feeling better about it, when I started noticed her very subtle changes in the opposite direction. There were many times I could have blown it, but the LRT steps really saved me from myself. And, of course, I have to stay the course, because this is just a test run. I'm sure there will be new opportunities to screw up.
Let's keep me in line so that it doesn't come to that, shall we? :-)
