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[Not Quitting]

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Since going back to work yesterday after a much needed week off, I've had so many compliments on the new hairstyle (seems H is the only one who doesn't like it). I've been told it makes me look at least 10 lbs lighter and 5 years younger. I've also been told I look so much more relaxed when anyone asks how things are going between H and I, instead of ready to burst into tears.

The only contact I've had with H since Friday when I blasted him by text about his unexpected "change of plans" and him turning up with OW in the same place he knew I was taking S13 for the weekend was this morning when I had to ask whether he's available for a meeting with the credit counselling trustee later this week. Short and to the point by text and nothing else.

I still think about him too often - especially if not busy (and work has been pretty quiet today) - but I'm noticing that I'm a lot less emotional when it happens. Does this mean I've got to the stage of acceptance or of no longer caring?

S13 is already planning activities for the next few weekends, before he's back to school in September - water park, pool party at one of my co-workers and there's the summer-end tradition in the city, The Ex, and S13 wants to go and do some of the rides. I've also reminded him that we have to do the dreaded back-to-school shopping at some point between now and the end of August.

He seems to be completely over the issue he had with his dad ignoring me. We've had a long talk about things and I explained that while I still love his dad and want to fix things between his dad and I, it's not something I can promise will happen. He seems to understand. He didn't ask any more questions about the blonde his dad was with. I've decided that I won't lie to him if he happens to ask me if his dad has a GF, but I'm not going to volunteer the information - it's not something he needs to know at this point in time. H and I had agreed that there is to be no contact for at least 6 months from the date the separation becomes final instead of just trial, should we get to that point.

I've only read part of DR but it's due back at the library soon and I can't renew it as there's a request on it, so I'm going to track it down at one of the local bookstores. I've got to set some goals and come up with some GALing ideas.