Lost, confused and trying to make a stand

[brobafet]

journaling:
I’m screaming inside my head, brokenness is my constant feeling. I want to get out of my body and become someone new. I do not like myself, i do not feel any worth. I do not want to feel sorry for myself. Why is this destroying me. I am sad. So very very sad. You’ve torn me in two and I dont know how to get that back. I pray to God but I don’t know if I’m not hearing him. I know he is there but I do not feel him. I never thought I would be here when I was younger and you’ve brought me to this place. I want to be me. I want to be happy. Oh my God!!! Please take this from me. I need strength. I need you Lord bring me peace. Take my hurt and anger and sadness. Take my despair.