I am at a loss on what to do anymore.

[Not Quitting]

Sadly, I don't think anyone can tell you, but you.

I can say that many times I considered it, and instead just hung in there and kept up the DBing. I have failed and backslid many times. But, things have definitely started changing for the better, if only baby step by baby step. I promised myself and my DB coach I wouldn't make any major changes if I was feeling despair or depressed.

Time is a double-edged sword. They need that time to figure out that it's not all sunshine and happiness in a new R, and you need it to heal and discover the strength that you have within you to get through this.

I'm in the same boat Mile High - get to the point of throwing in the towel, only to find something positive on this forum which makes me realize that I'm not really ready to yet, although things in my sitch haven't started improving yet.

It's surprising how strong we can be when we need to be. I know that if anyone had told me a year ago that this is where I'd be now i'd have told them no way because H would be out the door so fast that he wouldn't know what hit him.