Nothing more from xSO. Sort of feels like the contact never happened, except his words keep coming up in my head like a broken record player.
A part of me was so glad to hear from him but another part of me wishes that he would not have contacted me. Especially since he appears to be so happy with his life right now which I can only guess includes someone else. I will not compete in that competition which is why I won't initiate contact. As much as I try not to guess, I can't help but feel like the GF is still there in Technicolor.
On a positive note, his text does indicate he was thinking of me.
Perversely, I wonder if I will hear from him again. Is that what MLC is - these weird, random "hello are you still out theres?" Or did I buy a special kind of lottery ticket?
The darkness is like a shadow that follows me everywhere. At times, I can be content and even happy and upbeat but there is always that twinge of melancholy and that feeling of being utterly alone.
One day, I suppose those holes will fill and hurts will mend. I am working on it. Otherwise, life is keeping me busy.
